Lost

Feeling pretty lost today.

I am faced with the should we stay in Arizona or should we go back to Utah questions.

I have tried to sit down and weigh out all of the pro's and con's of both but I still don't know what the right decision is, what choice is the right one to make.

Reality is that we will end up starting all over. Arizona has the perk of cheaper housing due to the current economy and some of the jobs out here can be higher paying... well that is if you are able to competitively obtain those positions.

Utah is home - for me that kind of says it all. But it raises all of the same questions. Where do we move, which area's would be better, do we try to find something affordable in Eagle Mountain? So many questions. Then there is work, continuing my college, high schools for the kids.

Really all of these things are what keep me up at night. I remind myself each day that I have to give it to God and trust that his plan will work out the way it needs to. But really, if you know me well you also know that I am a planner, I don't normally do things with out a well thought out plan so giving it to God can be really hard for me at times, then I worry because I am trying to control what is out of control in my life that I am screwing His plan up. Who knows.

I guess at this moment, I will simply try to give it to God and let it be in His hands... Go find something to make for dinner for the kiddo's.... and cuddle with them on the couch and just Thank God that at least when everything in life is out of control and I still have my children.