Happy Birthday

Today is the date of my birth. Even though I chose not to have a relationship with my mother I am still thankful to both her and my dad for bringing me into this world 31 years ago today. 

I's funny the last few years I have had friends turning 30 and getting 'over the hill' parties thrown. Cracks me up! I really never freaking out last year when I turned 30. Honestly, it partly wasn't a big deal because I started having children young so my children alone age me. I felt old before 30. 

Thirty wasn't too bad for me. I joined a gym, learned how to eat clean. lost a bunch of weight, quit smoking, started smoking again, and again, and again... I became a stay at home mom, a cheer mom, football mom, and a student. This past year has come with it's challenges just as the year ahead will have a different set of challenges but I rolled with the punches and turned 31. 

Thirty-one will be a year of rediscovery for me. We are moving back to Eagle Mountain here in a couple of weeks, starting all over again will be challenging however will build my relationship with Jesus and my children. I will be a single mom all over again, however I will remain a full-time student, find employment and figure it all out. A couple of months ago I decided that I had to start putting things in God's hands and have faith that He will provide. I have had moments where I panic and then I remember that I simply need to fall to my knees and pray for guidance. He will provide. Sometimes I pray and the answers I get aren't the ones I want to hear, sometimes the answer is No. But at the end of each day, He has provided and slowly everything is starting to work out. 

Today, I have so much to be thankful and grateful for - my children, my family and my friends. Thank you for all of your love and support. Today I am thankful that I am 31.